Wednesday, 17 October 2012

The real reason I've not posted.....

Hello, to eveyone who follows this blog, I have been absent from posting for over a year now the last entry was in Feb 2011 and the reason I have not posted is because a few weeks after that post I discovered that I had a large lump in my right breast and it turned out to be breast cancer, then followed what can only be described as absolute insanity, after a month of constant scans my diagnoses did not look good aggressive grade 3 breast cancer at stage IV which had spread from my breast via my lymph nodes onto both of my lungs, it took a long time for me to come to terms with this....and during that time I was thrown headlong into chemotherapy that took 6 months and made me extremely sick by september 2011 I was finished with the chemo but needed to have a full mastectomy and lymph node clearance its taken until now for my breast to heal and my arm to be fully mobile, in January this year I did 3 weeks of radiotherapy, I am still on drugs (that I believe are keeping me alive) I take tamoxifen by tablet daily and have herceptin by IV administered by a nurse every 3 weeks this will continue for the rest of my life. I wanted to explain why I had not posted or produced any design work for such a long time, so that others understand the hell that I have been enduring for the past 18 months.

The latest news is good really good here's what I have written on my personal cancer blog;
WOW WOW WOW wanted to share my fantastic news with you all (I find it really uplifting to read of others good outcomes and hope this gives someone inspiration) The results of my latest ct scan were great! They actually told me that the nodules on my lungs are still unchanged (stable since last June) and tiny and the doc said "we don't actually know if it is cancer it could be scar tissue on your lungs!!!! but because the nodules are so tiny we cant biopsy them", she personally didn't think I had any cancer left on the lungs and the rest of the scan was clear, how amazing is that!!!!!, I'll be honest I was full of the fear and dread before I went into the cubicle thinking OMG feeling all tense and fragile, came out feeling elated and on top of the world so went and had a massive crab sandwich and bought some new 'Bare Minerals' makeup from House of Fraiser (good ole bit of retail therapy to celebrate), its the first bit of good news since all of this breast cancer shit started, it makes all the treatments, surgery and changes I've made feel worth while like cutting out caffeine and sugar, drinking a pint of green organic fresh juice daily, taking supplements and generally looking after myself, life is finally good again miracles CAN and DO happen something I am ever so ever so grateful for. 

So thats the run down on whats been happening and for the first time since this all started I am today turning a corner creatively speaking my agent has rang me to tell me that I have sold more designs to Tesco's and this has given me the much needed boast to get on and produce some more design work, 

One last word of caution please please please check your breasts, if you don't know how go and see your GP or the practice nurse and ask them to show you it could save your life and spare you this utter nightmare.

Love to you all
Sarah x

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